Friends and Puppies:  To find the good ones you must master the art of sitting real still

Mexico 2007 072When I was in junior high, I read a news article in the local paper that talked about the art of choosing a puppy that will be loyal for life. The piece suggested that if you sit in the middle of a litter of puppies, engage them in play and then sit real still, the majority of the pups will get bored, begin playing with one another, fall asleep or move on. The dog that is supposed to join you, their forever family, will remain close, snuggle with you or look directly in your eyes to let you know they are the one you are to choose. But you must resist the urge to pet and play with all the dogs or you will miss the match made for you.

This method has worked well for me. I have used it time and again and had some of the most loyal and precious canine companions. Mishka, my late golden retriever and Mallory, our “they-told-us-the-papers-were-tied-up-in-the-divorce-but-they-lied-black-lab” were both acquired with this method. Lola, my current black lab companion, that we never should have been able to afford, is the “rescue” exception. She was a blue-light special. Our pup was the runt of a litter meant to be large hunting dogs, and not one to photograph well, which resulted in the renowned breeder being unable to find a home for her. We happened to be on the internet at just the right moment and were grateful for the price adjustment. Lola seemed to know from the moment she was put in our arms that we were meant to be together and after watching all her siblings be placed in the arms of others, she knew the drill. She did not cry, even once, after we brought her home and has been loving us ever since.

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Embracing the theme that life serves up: Using grief and loss as a motivator

A friend of mine from grad school…LISA LEAHEY….is now a two-time inspiration to this blog of mine. This woman is about to embark on an amazing career as a speaker and author (with a little counseling on the side) because she has an ability to get to the point, the actual point, in an instant. We were chatting today about a speaking opportunity and got side tracked, and ended up talking about my blog. Then she made the astute point that if my blogs were starting to have a theme, I should embrace that, not run away from it. Theme in our lives can lead to having a specialty!

But my recurring blog theme is GRIEF!  Let’s face it, grief is not something that one wants to run into the arms of, on a regular basis. As humans, we want to avoid grief and we long for carefree moments and happier times. Are you are like me? I plan vacations as much for the anticipation of the relaxation and the escape, as the event itself. Choosing to embrace grief seems unnatural and wrong. Grief is scary and emotional, but a part of our lives, nonetheless. Planning a vacation isn’t going to take that away.

Celebrating Christmas with Shelly Dana
Celebrating Christmas with Shelly Dana

I have blogged about the loss of parents and loved ones, the loss of relationship, and the loss of health. And yet, all this blogging did not protect me from the loss of a friend just a couple weeks ago now. Oddly enough, my friend Shelly Dana was the heartbreak I felt when I posted during October, Breast Cancer Awareness month. She was taken by that cancer just a couple of days after Christmas this year and I find myself grieving yet again. And because I cannot help myself, I am analyzing the loss, so that I can offer the experience to those I serve as a counselor. It is different than the others…it is the same and different, all at the same time.

The obvious part of losing my funny, adventurous, smart, beautiful and spiritual friend is that I will not get to spend time with her again on this earth. She always made ME feel funny, adventurous, smart, beautiful and spiritual when I was with her so I am going to miss that kumbaya-ness that Shelly brought to our gatherings. But there is more…there is much more…that makes this complicated.

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I Learned How to Drive Stick in a Porsche: The Importance of Pouring into Other People’s Lives

1980_porsche_911-pic-59696-640x480Yesterday morning I received a call that I have honestly been expecting, but dreading, for awhile now. My precious Auntie Mary had been declining and at age 92, she had lived a full and beautiful life. She had suffered the loss of two husbands and two children. She had treasures in Heaven to go home to. I know that my dad is happy to see his “Manya” and my mom is welcoming her sister home.

My Auntie Mary was beautiful. She was beautiful on the inside and quite stunning on the outside. No one would have ever guessed that she grew up poor or that she had limited opportunity as a child because she possessed a class that can’t be taught. Her home was always a hospitable place and even many of my friends were welcomed in.

Much of my childhood was spent at Aunt Mary and Uncle Pete’s home in Newport Beach, California. They were steps from the sand so adults could sit on the patio and kids could go to the beach. Each Christmas that my mother hosted, Aunt Mary would invite me, and sometimes my cousin Marie, to spend a few days with her as her own children were grown. She would sew something for us or teach us how to bake something, and we basked in being spoiled by her.

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Awareness is Not a Cure: Why October stinks for people with breast cancer

BreastCancerAwarenessRibbon-1Okay, I might run the risk of upsetting some folks but I have a few things to say and I write better than I talk sometimes. Here it is: I am not sure if I like Breast Cancer Awareness Month.

I did not like it last year either, but I didn’t have the guts to say anything because I was in the midst of people showering me with meals and condolences and it is rude to scream, “I would rather not be in the position to need this support!” when so many are being so kind. I did share it with my physical therapist at Cancer Rehab…who laughed and said, “No one, who has ever had breast cancer, does.” She would know because, she pretty much knew everything, something I was so blessed by, for the 7 or 8 months that we were in each other’s lives. I think back on this beautiful woman who literally massaged my chest (yep, just what it sounds like) for months so that I could have reconstructive surgery without the football-skin scar tissue that had developed post-mastectomy. We would chatter along about my kids, her boyfriend, and all things associated with getting my life back, while she professionally revived my traumatized body. When I think about Alayna, I want to cry from this place of down-in-my-soul-gratitude for people that do jobs that are so weird but so profoundly necessary for healing. She was so interested that I am a mental health therapist. She told me that she had thought about being a therapist like me….uh, ya, you are sweet girl, you are.

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Parenting In the words of Aibileen Clark: You is kind. You is smart. You is important.

you is kindI am not the first to think that parenting should come with a manual. As any parent knows, raising children is one of the most challenging jobs that life presents. If it hasn’t been a challenge to you, I am going to be bold and say that you may not be giving the job the proper attention. If you have perfect children and it has been a breeze, take it from a therapist, your time for real parenting just hasn’t arrived yet. I have often joked that I am glad my children were colicky as infants and real terrors at both 2 and 3. I paid at least some of my dues early on.

In high school, my friend Carlyn’s mom was a therapist. I remember her laughing one day with us and commenting that she knew way too much about the families in Friendly Hills, where we lived. Families, by nature of people living together, with life happening all around them, are all a little quirky. Parents bring their own junk to the table, and oftentimes, without realizing it, pass it on to their children so that all the junk can be officially passed on for generations. Again, if you think your family isn’t a little crazy, you may be the only one who sees it that way. Just sayin’. Like Carlyn’s mom, I know some stuff.

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In With the Good: Change can’t occur if you won’t let it.

artistic-black-and-white-family-portraits-07 One of the indicators for me, as a counselor, when offering therapy to disgruntled spouses, parents frustrated with their children or individuals seeking to better their work situation, is the ability of the client to “let the good in”. By the time people come to counseling, their problem is somewhat significant. Smaller issues can be solved, for most people, on the back porch with a friend or family member and a glass of iced tea. But the biggies, the ones that cause people to think that they may leave a spouse, ask a child to vacate their home or tell their boss to “take this job and shove it”, are the problems that I am honored to help sort out. A factor or characteristic that  I look for in my clients, is their ability to let the needed changes occur.

Let me be clear. There are some family and work relationships where countless mulligans have been extended and for those, sometimes the attrition that occurs in battle cannot be overcome. In those situations, my job is to direct people to grieve what has been lost and create a healthier new normal. But for those who come in with sincere hearts and individuals who are truly trying to overcome differences, it can be frustrating for everyone involved, when one person clings to their belief that the other person is not doing enough to get the momentum going in the right direction.

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